It Hurts Too Much!
Greetings Friends, Family, and anyone else who happens to find their eyes landed on my blog page!
Growing Pains – I don’t personally remember many of these growing up, but I have witnessed many children experience them over the years. As one might imagine though, it is painful when your body grows. Imagine for a minute: Your bones are lengthening, your muscles, tendons, ligaments are being stretched, your skin is being stretched, etc. Another rather unfortunate event is that you also outgrow the clothes you once could wear.
Similarly, it is painful to grow emotionally. To experience growth, you have to do several things that are not fun:
– deal with your emotions
– oftentimes forgiveness
– owning your thoughts and actions
– walking through / reliving the pain, anger, guilt, shame, etc.
As you may recall, I am participating in a program called CGA, and part of that entails taking an Identity Course. One of the main components of the course is to walk in emotional healing and growth.
For many years I had become a great actor when it came to my emotions… or so I thought. While on the World Race in 2015, the Lord began to start bringing up some of the things that I needed grow in.
I also discovered that I could not grow more intimate with the Lord until I dealt with the fact that I was (and still am somewhat) emotionally immature.
Part of dealing with your emotional health and receiving healing is GRIEF. It is perfectly acceptable and highly encouraged to grieve your past. Grieve the loss: things that you wished were different growing up, actual deaths of people you knew, the loss of a job, etc. If you’ve lost something, spend time grieving it with the Lord. Bring your heart to Him for it is a form of worship. Lament before the Lord. When we refuse to tell God about our heart state and pretend like everything is peachy, we are merely bringing Him lip service. Just be honest, He can handle it!
In this season of CGA I am believing that I will experience more emotional maturity, greater intimacy with Abba, and freedom to walk in my Identity in Christ.
I am not looking forward to the pain, nor looking like a hot mess, that I may have to walk through to experience this emotional healing and maturity. I am expectant that it will come and I am anticipating a celebration for all that is to come.
I refuse to give up! I refuse to stop fighting for what is mine! I will believe the truth!
Everytime I may feel like giving up/quitting, I am going to ask myself the following question: is it worth the pain? Can I endure this temporary pain so that I can become more of who I was created to be? I give you permission and invite you to ask me these questions. I know it will be hard, but obtaining things are appreciated more when you have to fight for it.
I’d love to hear your thoughts as to how this blog encouraged or challenged you.
Keep Lookin’ Up,
Misha
P.S. I want to leave you with this passage of Scripture found in Mark 2:21-22 (NIV):
21 “No one sews a patch of unshrunk cloth on an old garment. Otherwise, the new piece will pull away from the old, making the tear worse. 22 And no one pours new wine into old wineskins. Otherwise, the wine will burst the skins, and both the wine and the wineskins will be ruined. No, they pour new wine into new wineskins.”
