Hello readers,
I will preface that this is an extremely vulnerable / intimate blog I am sharing with you all. But, I feel it is important to share these things as a testimony of what the Lord is doing.
I am going to share in the blog some of the things that the Lord has revealed to me during these times. Or, something that one might call a “Close Encounter” with the Lord.
One of the things that I have had the privilege to experience this semester is what we are calling Inner Healing / Soul Care sessions. The best way to describe it is Holy Spirit guided counseling with the end result of healing for the soul.
Imagine with me if you can: Jesus and I sitting on a giant rock at the end of the channel in Muskegon, MI. This is my spot that I go to back home when I have big decisions or just want to really be alone to think/process some things with the Lord.
Anyways, there was a red and white checkered blanket on the rock, and Jesus and I were sitting there together just chatting with some physical space between us. We also each had some coffee. As we were talking, He moved closer and put His arm around me. Then, I told Him some of the lies I was still believing/holding onto and He told me that I could let them go and exchange them for truth. So, one by one I wrote these lies down on small rocks and threw them into the channel. It was surreal, because I could hear the rocks making contact with the water and making a “Sploosh” noise. After I let the lies go, I then heard Jesus speak over me the truth of who I am: Accepted, Wanted, Desirable, Lovely, Beautiful, Seen, Heard, Fearless, Loved, etc. Then, I heard Him call me “Bride.”
PAUSE Scene – a literal pause had to be put on this session because of time, but the Lord was just getting started. There was a two-day break between what you read and what you are about to read.
Next session, we picked right back up where we left off. He started out by addressing me as “Bride” again. Some things He was saying:”You are mine – beloved, pure, undefiled, intimate.”
Then, we jumped locations and throughout the scene He told me a few other things: “I am here,” “You are not alone.” And then, I look over and He is holding up a sign that reads: “Will you marry me?” and He is down on one knee. I walk over to Him, He gets up, and we embrace and just stand there for a few minutes.
We go to leave the room because He said “Come on, let’s get out of here.”
Next scene, we are riding on a white horse together, He is in front, and we are riding through the forest. It was very peaceful, very still, very green scenery. The air was very moist and the path we were riding on was yellowish. I felt very loved, honored, cherished, adored. I was His princess and He was my Prince of Peace. I also had feelings of being untouchable and protected.
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So, where does this leave me? I am still trying to sift through it all and have had several conversations about these sessions. I want to do something physical to symbolize this experience. I think I am going to have some kind of ceremony and marry Jesus.
I’d love to hear your thoughts / suggestions as to what this could look like. Or, if you have experienced anything similar to this I would love to hear about that too.
Prayer Requests:
– Next steps for me … there are less than 3 weeks left until CGA ends and I am unsure of what I am doing next. I have a meeting on Thursday (8/11 @ 4pm) to hopefully help figure that out.
– I continue to trust in His plan and timing. It would be very easy for me to try to figure things out on my own and try to control the situation because that is what is natural for me, however, I feel like He has been telling me to give Him control and just trust Him. Be present and He will show me what is next when I need to make a move.
Thanks all!
Keep Lookin’ Up,
Misha
Pictures:
Vision Board for CGA on Welcome Day (June 6th)
Taco Bell packets with sayings that I obtained on a date with Jesus – two days after these sessions.
